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symphony in b flat 3-22-'xx: 6:44pm the inside of my mouth tastes like medecine. my room is getting that stale smell. I can feel the teeny bacteria crawling around in my lungs every second. yes, yours truly is sick with the black death once again. except this time, they didn't give me that euphoric cough syrup to ease the pain. so it's just me, some tea, one economy-sized box of nyquil, one economy-sized box of dayquil, a bottle of vitamin C, and a course of zithromax. yesterday, as far as writing my english essay and my history essay and overal Aspiring To Be A Better Person goes, I was extremely inspired. I'm attributing this to the near-lethal dose of dayquil and caffiene I took to start my day. but after coughing my way through the night in a half-asleep stupor, I figured I'd stay home today and catch up with myself a little. in my restless sleep, I honestly convinced myself I was coughing a symphony in b flat. I swear to god, I'm crazy. so today I just kind of slept and sat around reading things on the internet. because whatever inspiration I had has been coughed out of me by now. the concert with allen vizzutti last night went extremely well...he was a nice guy, humble with a sense of humor. we didn't make absolute fools of ourselves in front of him, which was a blessing. all thrugh this really long cadenza he was playing, I had to cough really bad. it was like torture. because I was sitting right under a microphone and it's just nto a good idea to cough during a cadenza. seems kinda rude to me. I swear, everything is sneaking up on me. it's like...life goes "boo!" and all of the sudden things that seemed so far away are in the past. as corny as that sounds, it's driving me nuts....but at the same time, it's kind of a relief. and now I've started to think about all the dreams I've had in the past. like....in '96, where did I think I'd be today? definately not where I am. the future is always changing. and it always seems that these dreams I have balance dangerously on one or two factors...and without them, I have to re-build my distorted image of what the future is going to be. I was also thinking of things in terms of colours today. like...take, for example, the whole thing with ben possibly applying to UW. when he told me that, it was like blazing bright colours all around, spinning and crap. and then, awhile later, it faded to soft yet solid colours...down to extremely subtle colours with small hints of a glimmer...and now to mostly black with a tiny bit of gray. he hasn't talked about it at all lately so I've pretty much come to the conclusion that it was a nice idea, but nothing more. it was nice of him to take my suggestion and look into it, but I never should have expected that it might actually happen. silly me. spring break is coming up and I have no idea what I'm gonna do. I think I might go chill up in BFC and BFV with taco and linz. but I now linz has school and I'm pretty sure taco has classes too so I dunno. I'm definately not staying here, I need to get away. I wish I could go on a REAL vacation, like the last two years, but I guess I'll have to settle with trekking up to the other side of the mountians. I'd say to linz "hey, why don't we take a trip to canada?" if her car wasn't running so shitty. well, I should go, I havent' gotten dressed all day and I swear I've been writing this for three hours or something. time to get something done. maybe. ←/ b a c k w a r d / f o r w a r d /→ |
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