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blasphemy and other tales

10-4-'xx: i forgot to record the time because i'm stupid. 5pm or so, probably.

[ on the wagon: green day ]

yeah. and speaking of green day....yes, their new album came out yesterday. and no, i didn't buy it. why? not because i'm punk and don't buy things from major labels [ HA! yeah RIGHT! ]. not because i'm too cool for green day [ on the contrary, i think it's quite the opposite ]. no. because i'm broker than shit.

i mean, i have some money. but not nearly enough to buy the CD and on top of that, i have TWO trip deposits due this month. for indiana and disneyland. indiana, i guess, is going to end up costing about $900, and disneyland is going to cost $584. yeeeeeeesh.

[ no surprises: radiohead ]

so anyway. i remember that i started an entry right after the justin timberlake one but ended up closing it because i had to go somewhere. and i honestly can't remember what i was going to say...i had SOMETHING in mind. i hate that.

but i ended up going to barnes and noble at some point and picked up that magazine. honestly one of the best interviews i've ever read with ANYONE. and the pictures....yeah. i don't even think i need to say anything about that. i also went to pick up my copy of don quijote which i ordered like, three weeks ago. y'know, assuming that it'd had enough time to come in. but was it there? noooooo, no, the publishing company or something had to go and cancel my order. just like that. it was like...thanks for informing me. so i am currently without a copy of the book...every chance i get, however, i borrow someone's and just read as far as i can. i have all the reading finished for this week, so i guess i have that going for me.

[ i just threw out the love of my dreams: weezer and the rentals ]

the book's good, though, so i haven't minded too much.

so the performance saturday...holy geez. what a disaster. i mean, it was looking up, because the football team was actually doing alright, but then we had to go and march a completely awful show. i'm not afraid to admit it. for one, the wind was blowing, and the new flags were hell of long. they'd get all wrapped around our wrists and we'd get all screwed up. but THEN there was the fact that everyone was screwing off, no one was being serious or focusing, some people just didn't know what the hell they were doing....

[ certian things: pinhead gunpowder ]

...people set their stuff wrong, et cetera. i mean, i couldn't see all of this, but the vibes were bad enough that i could feel that it wasn't any good. which was kinda sad.

[ butterbean: squirtgun ]

then, sunday, i finally got to go jam with ryan, tanner, and jon. and despite the fact that the music wasn't exactly my forte` [ "heavy frickin' metal" i think is what they tried to put on our audition sheet for homecoming assembly. i mean...i play in drop D for god's sake ], i'm actually having some fun with it. i mean...a good musician plays everything they can. at least in my opinion. anyway, it's not to tough, i just lay it down, thump out the roots rhythmically, stand there looking all cool. i just have to remember to play the right progressions...not that it matters too much if i don't! haha. i got compliments, though, when i tried out with them today so i guess i didn't do that bad of a job.

[ if i fell: the beatles ]

but ugh....today i felt horrible. i have no clue what it was...but from first hour until i got home i had these HORRIBLE cramps. and not like, "feminine" cramps or anything...it's not the right time for those [ thanks for announcing, eh? ]. but it felt just like them. and sometimes, it was like my whole stomach. it would be like, i'd get this pain so horrible that i'd double over for like, a minute, and then it would reduce to a dull throbbing pain for awhile, and then it would be excruciating for another minute or two. repeat. sometimes it was so bad that i couldn't barely move and i'd feel like i was going to puke and all that fabulous stuff.

[ could it be you: *nsync ]

larsen asked me today if i was playing for a head-nod group. y'know, nod your head at chord changes. the funny thing is...yeah, he's exactly right! haha. so every time we'd walk through the band room and he'd turn around and look at us, i'd nod my head at him. he sang the monkees theme song once, too. and when he asked me how it went...i nodded my head. he laughed.

crap. i can feel that damn pain again. go away! i don't need this shit. i even took like, enough painkillers to kill a small animal in music theory and it STILL didn't go away.

and now for a little bit of blasphemy. this is from an e-mail i wrote to ben last night, i don't feel like typing out the whole story again and since i was all tired and stuff it's kinda funny anyway:

[ green day: westbound sign ]

"...and speaking of jesus christ. today ruth was parked facing the car with the jesus air freshener in the window [ as soon as i get the chance, i'm getting some for my car, because they crack me up. they're awesome ] and i'm like "yes, blasphemous products for your car" because jacque was there and i'd suggested yesterday that she do her jingle for music theory on blasphemous products for your car [ i'm doing cup-o-noodles, it's based on a pentatonic scale....haha. i'm SO not musically PC ]. and she laughs and ruth says "yeah, so your car can smell like jesus! i just love the smell of jesus in my car..." and see, this girl in my music theory class said that the jesus air fresheners smelled kinda bad. so we got in this long conversation about how jesus must have smelled pretty bad...with how he probably didn't bathe a whole lot and all, and also with how people would come and pour perfume all over his feet and hair because they worship him and stuff. and like, all the insense and crap in the temples and whatnot...he must have just smelled funny. and the diciples didn't smell all like roses or anything i imagine, as well."

lizzy would be proud!

and speaking of lizzy...she's back! yay yay yay! but unfortunately...i hear rumours that she won't be able to march for the rest of the season. ack!

[ o holy night: *nsync ]

and when i was at the mall the other day, i was shocked [ well, not that shocked, to tell you the truth ] to see that the christmas ornament thing is already up. which means that christmas started in september this year. i swear...christmas is the worst exploited holiday. i mean...i think i said it way way back in the beignning of this journal...christmas has special meaning to me. for lots of reasons. and the exploitation pisses me off.

this song makes me excited for christmas. i love being up with the family. and thanksgiving and lefse day! rock on! the holidays....ahhh. i wish they were during marching band season...i'm probably going to gain a whole hell of a lotta weight because....yeah. that just happens during the holidays.

[ you are the sunshine of my life: stevie wonder ]

eeeee. cavalcade of bands is saturday. our first "competition"...i put quotes around it because while we are judged, we're only an exibition [ because we host the festival and that's the polite thing to do ] so we don't actually compete. still...it'll give us a pretty good idea of where we are and i'm just praying that we knock their socks off. plus...everyone will be watching, we can't screw up or they'll make fun of us.

all throughout today, along with the irritating pains, i also had temperature problems. like, i'd get really hot, and then, i'd be realy cold and i'd be wearing a sweater and my sweatshirt. in wind ensemble, i honestly wanted to put my hood up because i was freezing. and it wasn't like it was cold in there or anything...i just felt cold. weeeeird.

haha. more like boring.

[ thank you (for not being one of them): the mr t experience ]

i got a gig today. yes. a PAYING gig. a real gig. i'll be playing second violin for some kind of ensemble [ it's a quartet, i'm pretty sure ] at a wedding. the cash, of course, will go toward the aforementioned music accounts. it'll be a small step, but a step nonetheless, and now it's like i'm being responsible! hooray for taking care of my own problems!

[ crash: as covered by the mr t experience ]

yeah, two MTX songs in a row...normally i'd change it because i like to shake things up a bit but i was commenting [ to myself, of course ] earlier on how this song NEVER comes up on my playlist.

sigh. i have to pay a late fee to get into the date of the SAT i want. so much for responsibility, eh?

[ porcelain: moby ]

yes. this song IS perfect driving music. i find it funny my aunt likes it so much. i guess you'd have to know my aunt, though.

merrick decided that she'd bring me with her if she met *nsync, and that they'd love me. yay! i think i'd love them, too. haha.

oh yeah! and some madd propz go to kevin for linking this pathetic piece-o-crap in his brand spanking new blog. i've never talked to him before but he sounds like a pretty rad guy. so i guess i'll have to talk to him, too. and he's good lookin', to boot!

[ church on sunday: green day ]

well. i think that i've regressed into pointless rambling now. yeeeeeah. so i'll....go. maybe i'll take a nap. maybe not. maybe i'll drink some diet coke. probably.

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