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blower/sucker

3-5-'xx: 5:43pm

total laziness. it's starting to get dark, and it's been all cloudy and dreary all day. so much so that it induced a headache. and completel frustration. I wish there was somewhere to GO but taking a walk is pointless unless a) it's dark and b) there's somewhere to go. for whatever reason. unless I'm somwewhere else but here.

wow, there' smy dad, outside with the leaf blower/mulcher. I reminded him: "remember, dad...that machine sucks AND blows." it sounds like the machine is in suck and shred mode. but where is he shredding leaves? somewhere outside my window, but I don't want to get up, because my keyboard is in a perfect position...it's on my lap, AND it works. so I don't have to hunch over. score.

regardless of the fact that today is yet another lazy, depressing day, I managed to get something done. I practiced concerto in a minor for awhile, and some licks in the vizzutti piece. I also changed my strings. finally, my back started to hurt and the strings kept going out of tune and I got so frustrated that I just kinda stopped.

I attmepted talking to wyatt but he was "watching the game and drinking a bud." not just a beer....a BUD. that kills me.

ok, regardless of the fact that I've got my keyboard in an optimum working position, I am going to go see what exactly my dad is doing with the leaf sucker....quite well, actually. he says it's slow, but like...no shit. the leaves are all wet and stuff.

I also got myself a few slices of provolone. we all need to have our simple pleasures every once in awhile, and provolone...serious yum.

hmmm. in the coming week, I will be taking two trips. up to CWU tuesday for an orchestra festival, then up to tacoma thursday to check out the state basketball tournaments. and see my mom. possibly to seattle and bothell, too, to see taco and linz and hang out...see their new house. and generally be a pain in the ass, like usual. maybe I'll get to watch velvet goldmine...sweet jesus, I need to watch that movie before I got somewhat insane.

whooo. mind went blank. at least my headache went away. I think I was thinking about all this deep stuff earlier but I've prettymuch forgot. somewhing about how I'll never be the person who's cool and calm and nonchalantly smoking a cigarette...I'll always be the person who's on the verge of a nervous breakdown chewing on their pen like a maniac. what an image.

I still haven't e-maile ben back because I just kind of have to be in the mood for that kinda thing, y'know? if I'm not in the mood it comes out all shitty and then I end up e-mailing him AGAIN and apologizing. more evidence to go toward my "I'm pathetic" theory. anyway...I always worry about not writing him back right away...like it'll seem like I don't care or something...but then I remember he doesn't email me but once every two weeks. oh YEAH. si I'll just wait until I can talk wihtout being boring, sounding depressed, or complaining about stuff. it might be awhile.

although I really would like to know his motivation for the doodle (in the bottom right corner). but oooo it can remain a mysstteryyyy for now. keep my readers hanging in suspense! tune in next time, maybe the myysstterry will be solved! haha.

ben was talking about how a friend of his wanted to go out dressed in black and write stuff in chalk all over the sidewalks on campus. at 4am. ben says he wants to write "kaos" everywhere and it would be fine and dandy if I knew the significance of that word. is it a word? is it some form of chaos? yet another mystery to be solved, courtesy of ben. that boy, he IS a freakin mystery. but I love him nonetheless.

I honestly think that if you could totally figure someone out, they'd get kind a boring. ben's kind a like the mandelbrot set...it never stops, it just keeps getting more and more detailed. or something. it would be kind of boring if he was, for example, a sine wave. up and down, up and down. you know it's going to go on that way for ever and ever.

britt was like "you writing about ben?" damn!

anyway, enough of that. I should probably go DO something, like watch television. king of the hill is on in an hour or so. y'know what pisses me off? I think they canned freaks and geeks. all of the sudden, it's been replaced by some goddamned game show, twenty-one or something like that. pisses me off.

and that, folks, is all she wrote.

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