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furchtenmachen

10-31-'^o1: 11:15pm

i find it ironic that there happened to be a fire alarm right as i started actually doing something about my sociology homework. like so many cold and windy marching band rehersals and so many rainy and dim performances...i think it's a sign.

i think the scariest thing about halloween is that i spent over two hours practicing...and i actually liked it. in the past week something has clicked...i'm beginning to feel more and more at home at the music building. as this happens, i begin to spend more time there. but as of now, they do not yet own my soul. this came up today as i sat in the music bulding lobby.

"i just hope they don't find out i play bass."

"you play bass? do you play jazz?" jeff seemed surprised.

"yeah. electric bass, anyway. i played it through high school."

"then why didn't you try out for a jazz group or a combo or anything?"

"because i want to learn how to work the system before i commit myself to it too much."

this was met with nods of agreement. it's kind of like diving...you can either walk up and take the time to check the depth of the water before you dive in, or run up and pray to God that the conditions are fit for diving. sure, you may get a swift dive from the latter decision, but the chances of getting your head broken are pretty good as well. i'd rather take the extra effort to be positive i'm not going to.

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