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get. over. myself. 5-22-'o1: 11:41pm i figured it out...how to describe the feeling. this is where something is supposed to happen...y'know, insert something amazing here. something magical and astounding is supposed to happen now, and i'm waitng for it, and it's sure taking it's time. i suppose that i'm expecting far too much out of everyone and everything going on around me. therein lies the solution: i need to accept the fact that nothing earth-shattering is going to happen to me. i've got to make it happen. and by God, i will, if it kills me. not as if it could kill me any more than the waiting does. i don't mean to sound overly emo, but...i'm tired of this. i just have to realize that i'm nothing special. nothing i do is amazing and i should stop expecting something to pop out of nowhere for me just because i am who i am. there is nothing so great about who i am that i deserve to have something even remotely good happen to me. who the hell do i think i am, anyway? i deserve nothing. i doubt i even deserve what i have. ←/ b a c k w a r d / f o r w a r d /→ |
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